Surfacing (Spark Saga) by Melissa Dereberry

Author:Melissa Dereberry [Dereberry, Melissa]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Melissa Dereberry Books
Published: 2014-03-16T05:00:00+00:00

On my nightstand at home is a photo of me when I was about five years old. I look at it every night before I go to bed. When I get home, as I’m getting ready to go to the game, I pick it up and look at it for a long time. It’s me, but I feel disconnected from it—and rightly so. Four years of my life were basically erased, non-existent. What happened during those four years, inside my brain? And how did I get from there, to where I am now—a girl with an incomplete past, and a future that seems almost as uncertain? Those missing memories must be in my brain somewhere, right? Memories don’t just disappear. I mean, they happened. The only thing preventing me from knowing how or where is me—and whatever physical limitations resulted from my accidents. Pretty messed up, to be both protagonist and antagonist in the story that is my own screwed up life.

I decide the only answer is to move forward. My past isn’t the only thing that determines who I am. Some people might even say that forgetting the past and living in the present is a good way to go. I have all the basic information I need to function. I remember the important stuff—like vacations with my parents when I was little, Christmases, birthdays…for the most part. I still have my friends. I’m doing pretty good in school. It’s not like the rest of my life is going to be based on what happens in high school. My dad once asked me, when I was upset about not being invited to a friend’s party in fifth grade: Is this going to matter in five years? Ten years? That made me think, about how the things that happen to me as a kid aren’t as big and scary as they seem. If I can deal with the small stuff, he said, I will breeze through the big stuff.

As it stands right now, the biggest thing that’s happened to me is laying in a hospital bed for four years. I’ve already cleared the biggest hurdle—the physical consequences of that injury. I’ve recovered, for the most part, with some partial memory loss, which doesn’t affect my ability to function on a daily basis. I remember one time in school, a teacher telling us a story about a friend of his who got shot in a random drive-by shooting, and lived to tell about it. His conclusion was that the worst thing in life had already happened to him, so he might as well enjoy and make the best of his life from there on out. I remember that, because it made sense to me. Why dwell on something bad that’s happened, when it’s over? It makes no sense to live in the past. Living in the past lands people in therapy. Living in the past makes people miss the good stuff in life.

And I for one, don’t want to miss that. Tess Turner’s future begins, right here and now.

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